My Cry and My Happiness Are In Your Home
For Whom?

DEG

my heart seemed to be in disbelief when I heard who was speaking there. This chest seemed to feel as if it was tight to hear his voice.

"nur," he called my name again, but I still stared straight at him, clenching my hand that tried to hold the anger in my heart because of his actions.

"nur,, sorry" again, he called my name. I realized, my tears dripped perfectly because I could not stand it anymore when he said the word 'sorry'.

"nur,, is anti really mad at ana? I'm sorry, ana didn't know that it would,,,"

"angry? the taste is no right for ana angry with antum. antum who has this cottage so antum free to do whatever antum want at will antum antum, well,,, even though antum himself knows that what antum does is one that is prohibited in this cottage, but it is calm antum will not feel the punishment because antum a GUS" I pressed the word 'GUS' against him, because of my anger that I still hold against him.

"in addition antum is also far from here.so surely only ana who will feel the punishment even though actually ana feels that ana is not wrong in this case, oh no,,, ana is also wrong.had to urgently dispose of the letter when Gus luthfi gave it to ana, without having to read her first "continu who is still in control with anger because of his actions

"nur,, Afwan.ana does not mean that, ana does not mean to be anti in the law because of that. Afwan nur,,," he repeated his apology to me, but I, my heart is still angry still,, ah,, that's it.

"ana has to finish the job ana Gus, if no one wants to talk about it anymore, ana hang up the phone. anyways ana also does not want to be punished again for taking the phone is not in place. assalamualaikum"

"waalaikumsalam wr wb" he replied slowly, I immediately hung up the phone. I wiped the remaining tears that still have my cheeks and eyes before returning the phone belonging to aunt, I was, because of her shame if I get caught crying.

"how did you talk to Gus Hafidz?" suddenly BI Nani was behind me before I gave her the phone in my hand.

"it's bi, this is returning the phone" I, nurain gave the phone to BI Nani.

there is no question from BI Nani who used to bring me a flirtatious tease between me and Gus hafidz. I don't know maybe he had heard my conversation and saw me cry a little, so he feels bad about me, or maybe he doesn't want to interfere too much about this, I don't know.

I continued the ironing of clothes that were still a few more.at eleven less finally the work was finished.I got up after tidying up the clothes and ironing in place. I walked out of the small room intending to say goodbye to BI Nani, but I saw BI Nani was nowhere, where was she? I called still not saying. Maybe in her room, I thought. ah, it was true that aunt was sleeping soundly. I finally decided to return to the dorm without saying goodbye to aunt first.

once in the room I immediately rushed to the bathroom to clean myself then ready to go to the musholla and after that just went to the madrasah or school to re-execute the school exam.

half twelve I was done getting ready, still quite a long time to the dhuhur adhan time, but I decided to go to the musholla early, but I decided to go to the musholla, at least I can use the time for the tadarus first.

"nur,, go to musholla?" widia asked as I was wearing a face to my head.

"bareng yuk, ana also wants a tadarus first in musholla" he continued, I just nodded smilingly assuring Widia's invitation.

"shil, want to come to the musholla also not let us be together" Widia said to assyila who was sitting while facing her closet

"eumm, I don't think so first" said Asyila as she glanced at me for a moment. I just kept quiet without making a word here.

"why not go with it? ana clay anti also no longer anything, is it nur?" Widia followed my hands.maybe asking for my support.but why here, Widia is a rather useful kayak, whether Widia might know that I and Asyila are not close lately, he said, so that Widia wants to make us so close again. somehow, I just look at a glimpse of Asyila, I see Asyila as well as if reluctant to go with me. then I better just shut up.

"how will Shil not come with us to musholla?" ask Widia again to make sure

"Wid,, ko maksa anyway? ana has said no. so do not need it anymore. if you want to go first well first why the meaning of people who do not want to" suddenly asyila spoke in a slightly high tone that made people all over the room look at her and at me alternately. well he was angry at Widia or maybe angry it was aimed at me through Widia.you why the hell shil,, ko so turned gini.

"Afwan syil, ana do not mean maksa. ya nur we aja to musholla. Salah ana has not been given someone who is difficult to understand" Widia pulls my hand slowly while walking and glances at the assyila with a cynical look. Here I feel all wrong and unpleasant, as if I am the culprit of the commotion between Widia and Asyila. oh, my God,,,

"Afwan ya Wid" I said when we were in front of the door of the musholla

"why apologize?" ask Widia

"no, I feel guilty"

"no, not wrong anti ko. already do not need to baper yes about it" Widia took me to step into the musholla.

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finished praying, I immediately rushed to get ready to go to school. today I left with my other friends, besides Maryam of course. when we went down the stairs near the nanny's house, and I went to the house, suddenly Babah's car and the nanny's mother came. We all immediately bowed our respect to him.

one by one the people from the car came out. There was a father, mother, Ning Farah, Gus Lutfi, even Dr. Aisyah also there turned out.we all wanted to directly shake hands with him in turn. but after a few seconds it turns out there was another person who came down from the car. a woman with a maroon red robe and a matching hijab. masyaallah,, very graceful, very graceful, beautiful and like her people are also gentle.it looks from the way she smiles kindly to us.

"Alhamdulillah has arrived, how do candidates like the atmosphere here?" suddenly she said something that made our eyes all round perfectly.

a candidate? whose candidate did she mean by a babysitter mother? what's the candidate,, argus hafidz?