My Cry and My Happiness Are In Your Home
the answer, I don't know

"asyila, where I was waiting for from earlier also did not come by, said her to nyari aunty even follow me" asked me asyila half when beru returned from the babysitter's house

"iya nur Afwan, just now there was a phone first, so it was a bit long. keep on calling abis want to go straight down but urgently ask for help ana the same Kania to settle his security report record, because he is the same other ustadzah will again focus on the same oral exam, that is. Afwan ya Afwan really" said assyila by cupping into his two hands.

"yes no papa if that, kirain ana where was that"

"not angry, right?"

"yes, it's not just a little sprain" I said as I brought my index finger and thumb closer together

"have we had lunch? ana Laper" said Asyila holding her stomach

"ayo, but ana nemenin aja well. still full earlier abis eat with aunty below"

"well,, the time of nemenin aja, yes it's not like to eat rice want its jajan baso or whatever is below all we buy snacks in the minimarket"

"that's why it's not so full, if there's a code for mah hehe tracts"

"huuhhh,, basic"

"yes let's go, said he wanted a treaty" said I pull assyila's hand

"then, let's take Maryam"

"oh yes, almost forgot his spirit so hehe" said I cry, well his name is also in the tract who is not happy to try. moreover, assyila if you have given a treaty and never it-counts because between me and Maryam, assyila is indeed the largest of her pocket money because she was also born from a family that is more than enough.

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"assalamualaikum wr wb, a call to shafina shidqya nurain, awaited in the organization room right now.thank you wassalamu'alaikum wr wb"

"nur, what business to the organization room we have left from all organizations" asked Maryam when I and Asyila were eating in the cafeteria after completing the last oral exam

"most Agam who calls, talking about the appearance of our last art creation" I said while drinking the juice that I had ordered

"oh yes, forget there is still a final creation that we have to dedicate to our class brothers" said assyila with enthusiasm

"yeah yuk, I waited a long time for him" we also stood up and immediately walked towards the organizational space where this room is usually used by the santri putra and santri putri elected into the organization members of either pesantren or OSIS board, and here also meet her between santri putri and santri putra but not for ihtilath but to discuss various kinds of work programs that will be held both in school madrasah and in pesantren.

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"assalamualaikum"

"waalaikumsalam wr"

"ukhti nurain?" said someone behind the hijab. because even here the organization room is allowed to meet her between santri putra and santri putri, although, but still wear a barrier with a hijab or satir to avoid slander that causes madhorot.

"yes, ana. there is Maryam equally assyila also here" I replied behind the hijab

"Alhamdulillah, this is ana Agam same akhi Azhar. gini we call anti here want to talk about the art creation offerings that will be displayed in the next five days. for his creations we must discuss simultaneously between class XII son and daughter. therefore as a representative of the princess try to discuss with others, if you can tonight should also have discussed it. so tomorrow we can gather all to ensure which creations will be displayed. Or maybe from among the santri princess there is an idea or input, or maybe, let it be later when ana and Azhar gather can convey to all the students of his son"

"Syukron aki Agam, actually we santri putri have not had time to think about what creations will be displayed later, because it is a new exam completed as well.so maybe,,,"

"iya Afwan, the effect is so ana who hastily rich her" said Agam cut off my unfinished words

"that's not what it means, even we are grateful because it has been reminded because it is indeed a time that remains a little while longer" said I straightened out the purpose of my speech just now

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finished the discussion, I, asyila and Maryam went straight to the minimarket to buy something we needed. there we met with Dr. Aisyah who had just come out of the minimarket, the three of us bowed while smiling kindly at her,,,

"iya doc" I replied as I turned towards her

"can we talk?"

Maryam and Ashila looked straight at me.

"yes, can doc"

"but not here, on the poststren page how?"

"yes can doc"

I also gave permission to Ashila and Maryam to follow Aisha's doctor.

"eumm, how's the leg since it's healed there's no complaints, right?" asked doctor Aisyah when we were sitting on the chair that is usually in the post-stren page. awkward feeling, but I should be able to maintain the attitude so that doctor Aisyah comfortable talking to me

"Allah dok does not exist, God willing to be fully healthy" I said a little embarrassed

"Alhamdulillah if that's it"

"eummm, actually someone wants to ask anti. but ana is also confused actually, what is appropriate to ask this to anti" said doctor Aisyah accompanied by a small smile, my heart became stubborn not because rich gini. actually what the doctor Aisyah wanted to talk to me.

"ask me doc, insyaallah ana answer if ana knows the answer" said I try usual

"eumm,, what's anti,, what's the, the, the, the relationship with,,, Gus hafidz?"

DEG

I looked straight into Aisyah's eyes.I didn't expect that Doctor Aisyah would ask me something I had never thought of before.

"eummm,, Afwan doc, what do you mean? how's relationship?" ask me for doubt

"i mean, did Gus hafidz ever express his feelings for anti?"

"oh, that, that, rich gus hafidz can't like ana let alone say it to ana directly"

"but wasn't that time anti-lawful for receiving a letter from someone? is that from Gus hafidz?" he asked again, there was a worry on his face and I saw it from his eyes even though Doctor Aisha was wearing a veil. Yes, God do I have to be honest? but I'm afraid this will hurt her heart, because I'm sure that Doctor Aisyah keeps the taste for Gus hafidz. Or am I just lying? but, am I not a sin to do that?.

"eumm,,, the letter,,,ana, that means there's no sender in the letter, so you're not sure who it's from either. But you're sure it's not from Gus hafidz. moreover, he knows exactly the rules in this cottage" I assured doctor Aisyah

"but, if it turns out that it's from Gus hafidz, will the anti also reciprocate his feelings?"

"what?" I said surprised

"doctor Ayesha, don't think of anything that you think is impossible"

"nur, nothing is impossible in this world if Allah wills" he said, holding my hand and looking at me with a serious gaze

"ana just wants to know how anti-same Gus hafidz feels?"

I also paused for a moment to ponder the words of Doctor Aisyah.

"everything God governs, God controls.we humans can only accept and carry out according to his commands, according to the rules.even this heart is also God who controls. for now ana can only answer if your heart still wants to focus on learning so ana has not thought about things related to it"

"yes anti-bener, even if it is anti-jodo with Gus hafidz ana can what, God who regulates it is not?" doctor Aisyah smiled with what she said.I just kept quiet without responding, trying to smile so as not to become a burden for me and doctor Aisyah, I just kept quiet, because I myself do not know what will happen in the future.