My Cry and My Happiness Are In Your Home
Different portion of the exam

am I wrong if I feel happy with the rare doctor Aisyah to visit the house umma or Babah?

am I wrong to be afraid that my daughter will come back closer to doctor Aisyah if I am being as kind as I used to be to doctor Aisyah?

if you think back, my intention is not to be bad to doctor Aisyah, only I am more quiet and not as peaceful as before if I met her. and that was caused by my jealousy towards her who could always be closer to those around me that I loved.

maybe if it's close to my husband's family, I can understand, but this is with my daughter, I can't accept that because I'm afraid, if my daughter doesn't understand anything, she'll know Doctor Aisyah better as her mother than I am her biological mother, even though there's no bond between them.

back, my husband discussed the doctor Aisyah who almost two months old never again visited the house, although in fact I also know if almost every day he was around this cottage, he said, return to practice here to help santri-santri like before.

but somehow Doctor Aisyah never once visited the house.maybe she tried to keep a distance with my daughter? or maybe he was hurt by my attitude back then? I don't know for sure why, which is clear now that I want to focus on taking care of my daughter, as well as my husband.

{assalamualaikum buddy, kaefa haluk? kangen very same ana anti and assyila. we meet yuk, Alhamdulillah ana now has moved to Bandung, not far from ponpes mu}

a message came in while I was busy accompanying Naura to play a doll on the back porch of the house.

it turns out from my best friend Maryam, without waiting for long I immediately contacted her via TLP connection.

"Sir, anti serious right? ga know?"

ask me impatiently when my TLP connection has been lifted

"o Allah, the one who says hello first, abis is tidings, then others"

maryam said there

"hehe, yes Afwan deh. abis ana seneng really tens of anti so move here"

after chatting to and fro, then I decided to directly visit her today because it turns out Maryam moved to a housing not far from this cottage.

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"Zainab played with Naura tea first, baby"

maryam said to her daughter who was just about two years old, when I was in her house.

"here nur, we sit here. let the children play in it safe ko"

after making sure Naura and Zainab played safely, we sat in a chair not far from them.

maryam's house is still a little messy because she just moved in yesterday afternoon, so her belongings haven't really been neatly arranged.

"where is it bothering you? his anti-rich is getting sorted?"

ask me for fear of interfering with his activities

"not ko, even ana seneng anti the same Naura here. from Zainab fussy, boro-boro can be sorted even busy ngajak Zainab play let not fuss. but now Alhamdulillah rich Zainab has started lackey, maybe no time yes"

said Maryam while looking at her daughter at a glance

"that's rich"

answer me smiling knot

"oh yeah how, anti-beneer is healthy right now? that means nothing is felt from the effects of the accident or his coma?"

"Alhamdulillah ana is as healthy as ever"

"but ko look anti-rich face that is not healthy?"

"already nur, ana tuh know very anti when happy, sad, sick, or if there is another thought.why? if anti want to be able to tell ko sama ana"

"heumm, anti-emang hasn't changed since"

I said, smiling little

I finally told her everything I had and all my uncomfortable feelings about the existence of Doctor Aisyah, who was sometimes the trigger for a small quarrel between me and Gus hafidz.

not the intention of wanting to expose the disgrace of my household, but I am just a woman who certainly can not hold or hold all her own.

if you tell your father or bang cipher, it's impossible because I don't want to make them worry or don't want to make dad and bang cipher to blame Gus hafidz.

so I decided to tell Maryam all her friends, she besides her people can be trusted also wise in providing solutions or advice. then God willing, God willing, I didn't choose the wrong friend to confide in like him.

"oooohhh, so this is a problem because of jealousy tooo"

maryam's response was even as if it was hurting me.

"what the heck the clock is not funny to know, ana story with serious anti response even that"

"hahaha, he's angry.emang really right, wrong where try hihihi"

I just put on a sullen face because I was annoyed by the response Maryam gave me.

"yes deh yes Afwan, heumm,, this is soh sob, everyone must have a problem by itself and certainly it will be different even though some have the same problem that we experience. likewise with the solution, everyone will have and choose their own solution, want to take a simple but comfortable or complicated and the results may also be comfortable or vice versa"

"what the heck, don't muter-muter that's talking, ana don't understand loh iam, seriously"

"this is BESTie, actually the solution is on the anti self. namely about anti feelings, anti sincerity, if the anti would accept the proximity of doctor Aisyah with Naura, according to Ana it is better because it will reduce the burden of anti thoughts, also a feeling of comfort to Naura. insyaallah doctor Aisyah will never be able to replace the anti position in the heart of Naura, moreover, anti is now always on his side, but if anti is still calm with anti attitude now then many will feel uncomfortable, like doctor Aisyah will stay away and may actually leave but it will have an impact on the two families between your husband's family and doctor Aisyah. anti understand what you mean?"

I just kept trying to absorb what my best friend had just said.

"it's just about how we make peace with our hearts ukhty"

Maryam smiled as she clasped my hand tightly.

"why did you move here?"

maryam asked, and I just shook my head in response.

"that's because Ana's in-laws can't fully accept ana"

"ko could? why is that Iam?"

I'm a little surprised to hear what Maryam said about the reason she moved here.

"iya nur, because from the beginning of my marriage with mas Ahmad turned out his mother did not give his blessing at all. his mother wanted mas Ahmad married Azizah the son of one of his distant sodara. ana was angry at the beginning, because Ahmad did not tell her from the beginning, but ana tried to accept it and tried to take the heart of her mother-in-law in order to accept ana, everything that ana did was always wrong in his eyes, until finally Ahmad invited ana to move here.of course because Ahmad would return to teach also in the cottage. so at least our move didn't really make my dad feel bad in particular because of mom's attitude towards ana"

I looked at Maryam with sadness, I did not expect that the test faced by my best friend was more difficult than me.

"so his core man, we will be tested through different paths to practice patience and surely his to further increase our faith as well, and surely his to test our gratitude as well. and the key is here"

continued Maryam while touching my chest.

true, the test of every human being is different, but the key to all of that is in our hearts, if we are able to make peace with the heart then we will be easy to accept and go through a situation that we think is difficult.