My Cry and My Happiness Are In Your Home
A Slap

POV Hafidz

"you've been lying here for four months baby.Are you not tired of sleeping like this?"

I asked Nurain, hoping he could hear all the words I said while he was with her.

"you must see, how beautiful and adorable our child is. His eyes are as beautiful as yours, and Brother misses with those eyes. eyes that always look at you with a warm and loving gaze.Eyes that are always shady but show a twinkle of cheerfulness. Brother miss all that darling___miss,,,, hiks"

no more shame to cry since Nurain never woke up from his sleep, it felt like this heart was so empty and empty.

there was no more joy in my life as the beautiful smile dimmed from my wife's lips.

"are you still angry with your brother? is this punishment not enough for you? whatever you will do dear brother, as long as you wake up and return to Brother, we both raise and educate Naura until she grows up to be like her mother, beautiful and Sholehah. you would be very proud to have a daughter like Naura. even though she is only four months old, but she is very smart to record whatever she sees and she hears. You want to see? this brother brought his video this morning while he was playing while playing his tiny fingers.Adorable isn't it? you'll want to hold and kiss her with a crunch, but for that, you have to heal quickly and get back to health in order to get together with our little family, baby"

still the same, there is no response from nurain. ku kiss her forehead, as a sign of how much I love her. I feel her skin is a little dry, as well as, maybe the effect of the drug is always injected into the infusion hose, even his body became very thin, but it does not reduce his beauty.

"son hafidz? Aunty thought there was no one here. sorry well Auntie wanted to check the state of the nurain for a while"

said Aunt Rini who had been taking care of nurain in the hospital.I also retreated backwards, giving room for Aunt Rini and the nurse to check the state of nurain.

"so early in the morning is hafidz already here?"

"yes doc, because hafidz can not be calm if you have to leave the nurain long"

I said without taking this view away from nurain.

"heeummm, Aunt knows.you are patient, son. lucky nurain can have you"

"oia doc, can hafidz talk to the doctor?"

"can, then we go to Aunt's room now"

I nodded and followed Aunt Rini into her room.

"what do you want to talk to Auntie about?"

he asked when we were sitting on a chair in the room Aunt Rini

"well, if I may hafidz want to take care of nurain at home. hafidz wants to take care of him for 24 hours. and hafidz also wants to bring nurain closer to our son, he wants to take care of her for 24 hours, who knows, that way Nurain could be aware of Tan"

well, if there are no nurses or other doctors I always call Aunt Rini as Auntie not a doctor, this is just for the sake of maintaining professionalism in the work of Aunt Rini in this hospital

"that's also if according to Auntie it is possible to nurain at home"

connect me to Aunt Rini

"heeummm,, begini fidz"

there was a breath so heavy before Aunt Rini continued her words.I don't know what she meant, but I hope it's not a bad thing to say.

"actually Aunt does not want to say it, but inevitably Aunt must convey it to you. four months into a coma, nurain, and since then until now there has been no significant change in his condition.nurain can still breathe, a little bit of it because it is helped with oxygen. the longer the nurse is treated here, the longer it is treated, then the cost will be even greater. There is actually no determination of the time exactly how long a person should be connected with a ventilator or a tool that helps care for nurain during this time. It's just that during these four months we were monitoring his circumstances, and that there were no significant results at all. Aunty just not all this burdensome mu fidz, be it in terms of cost or time. Especially now you have a daughter who really needs you. Aunt only__"

"just want to help nurain go faster than the hafidz side, do you mean Auntie? hafidz didn't expect Aunt to be Setega's on the nurain"

"no boy, I mean Auntie is not like that. it's very fond of the two of you. then Auntie does not want to make you both tormented with different circumstances"

said Aunt Rini accompanied by tears that began to fall from her eyes

"Aunty said yesterday that Nurain would definitely be healed again, even though the possibility was very small, but why now Aunty talk back? Tan, make hafidz as small as any hope nurain to be able to recover, Even if that hope is only 0.001% hafidz will never despair to wait for nurain to wake up again. So hafidz please, please, Aunty do not give up on the state of wife hafidz. hafidz beg Tan"

these two palms I put together as a form of my request to Aunt Rini to continue to want to keep hope in the recovery of my wife.

Thank God Aunt still wants to fight with me for the healing of Nurain.

'this hope is still great, O Allah, I am sure you will also give happiness after this test'

~

"fidz,,"

suddenly Alif was already standing before me, he looked at me with a look of pity and concern.well I know that, well, because almost all brothers or friends who are close to me sympathize with the incident that happened to Nurain.

we hugged each other and asked each other for news, because we had not seen each other for several months.

"we go to the cafeteria first yuk, surely anta has not eaten. anyways there is already waiting for us"

"who?"

Alif did not reply, he just pulled me to follow his steps.

after arriving it turns out in the cafeteria there are already friends and friends of mine who used to be a campus while studying in Turkey.

because of his sense of being moved to be back with them. We hug each other and ask each other news.

"sorry, we just know the state of your wife fidz. So we just had a chance to visit here"

faqih said one of my best friends of the time in Turkey.

not much time we spend to give up longing, because the atmosphere that does not allow me to linger with them.

after seeing the state of the nurain, one by one they say back to their respective residences.

the rest of Alif who is still here accompanies me waiting for nurain.

"how's fidz? anta want to go home first?"

alif asked when I just came out of one of the nurses' rooms, to leave the nurse because I had to go home first.

"yes we go home first, there's a nurse waiting for Nurain"

without waiting for too long we stepped outside the hospital into the parking lot. Alif came with me to the cottage because he wanted to meet umma and Babah.

when I got to the front of the house, I saw a car parked there, and well, I already knew who the owner of the car was.

"assalamualaikum"

I said I said hello with Alif when I entered the house. There is Babah, ummah and my in-laws who are none other than the father of Nurain.

he looked at me, with a pretty sharp look.

true, I know the reason why, but, ready not to be ready I have to face him and bear all the risks for my mistakes.

"well"

I reached out to kiss the back of his hand, and yet,,,,,,

PLAQUES

a slap landed right on my cheek.