My Cry and My Happiness Are In Your Home
her smile

four days passed, and today was my last exam day. Just one lesson so it can be finished quickly.

"Alhamdulillah finished the brain exam period in this cottage" said assyila while lying on the carpet that is usually held in the room

"today to mother yuk's house, who knows Bi Nani needs our help" said Asyila invite me

"come on" answered my spirit

I immediately changed my uniform with everyday clothes as well as fun.

"yuk nur, are you ready?" ask Asyila and I answered her with a nod of the head, we stepped together, but when on the doorstep I remembered that I still had a wrong with Gus hafidz and I have not apologized. how about Gus Hafidz? whereas for four days I have been very trying not to meet her, even if we will cross paths I always avoid her, I always avoid her, the present even me who suddenly the effect is nyamperin.

"nur, ko stop? ayok" assyila grabbed my hand

"eummm, rich ana did not follow deh. anti-ja yes who went there"

"why? afraid to meet Gus hafidz?" ask Asyila who already knew the incident at that time from Maryam and Widia.

"have no need to be embarrassed or afraid, if you meet well good anti can apologize directly to the person"

"but syil, ana is not ready" I doubt

"yes already means no, anyways today is not his mother's family on going to the Lake, so insyaallah anti will not meet first with Gus hafidz"

"that's it, yeah, yeah come on" we resumed our steps towards the nanny's mother's house

we entered through the back door, apparently there was no one in the kitchen.we called BI Nani but there was no answer.

"auntie where well shil, ko no one is rich, but the door of the house is not in the key" I said to assyila who was busy here and there looking for the existence of BI Nani

"don't know ana either"

"yes already gini, anti-search BI Nani maybe again to the cafeteria, ana want to wash the dishes first, let shorten the time" I said while cleaning dirty dishes and glasses in the sink where to wash dishes

"okay, but anti papa will be left alone?"

"no papa, rich in living anywhere" I started washing dishes while Asyila went outside to look for an aunt

fifteen minutes, assyila or aunty still no one came and I just finished washing the dishes, but I saw like the floor was also not on the broom then I decided to sweep the house first

"BI,, hafidz can ask for help making,,,,"

DEG

our eyes met, Gus hafidz came out to open his door with a white sarong and t-shirt and a towel around his neck that he used to wipe his wet hair.

"Afwan, I don't think anyone is" I said, turning my back to step into the kitchen

"wait a minute," Gus hafidz stopped me

"kalo can ana want to talk for a while" he continued but with a tone that seemed doubtful, I just kept quiet without turning towards him

"is there no apology for ana in anti heart?"

I was silent, as was Gus hafidz.he did not ask back, probably still waiting for an answer from me.

"Afwan gus, if ana's words yesterday were so presumptuous and offensive to antum. ana did not mean,,,"

"no, this is not ana offended by the anti speech at that time. instead ana wants to apologize about the letter that once ana wrote so as to make chaos in the anti life, anti, and making the anti so hateful to ana" I heard from her tone, Gus hafidz really felt guilty for what happened back then, my time in law over a misunderstanding that I can't straighten out other than just being able to be silent in response.

"iya Gus is okay, ana already mafin antum also anyways"

"Syukron," he said, I just nodded my head and prepared to step back into the kitchen

"wait,, ana, ana, ana , ana , you want to ask one more thing. eummm,, after reading what ana wrote, what is the anti response?"

"response?" I was a little confused by Gus hafidz's question

"yes he means, what is anti also,,,eumm,, that, so,,eeuuummm,,, astaghfirullah" he seemed very difficult to say, repeatedly rubbing his face violently. I smiled at his behavior which I thought was something very rare I saw from a Gus hafidz who was so cold and indifferent to others.

"Gus, if antum can not continue antum words it would be nice not to be forced" said I still with a position behind him. not to be disrespectful just that I still do not dare if I have to meet face to face with him, I am ashamed especially here there is only me and Gus hafidz.

"Afwan, maybe this is not the right time for ana to ask her directly to anti" he said again in a regretful tone

"if there is nothing more to say, ana back, assalamualaikum" I stepped into the kitchen, but when I got to the doorstep I stopped my step

"Gus,,"

"yes" answered Gus hafidz spontaneously by directly looking at me from his bedroom door

"Afwan, at that time the word ana was so presumptuous and outrageous.ana was only still upset because antum was suddenly in front of ana as a tester, which made ana concentration slightly buoyant. regarding the letter ana has forgiven antum, ana sincere because it is not entirely wrong antum. otherwise ana is not in the law because of the reason of the treatise of antum, antum, perhaps ana will also be punished for other reasons.if indeed Allah has outlined it for ana.no one regrets because ana believes in the fact that all the destiny of God is beautiful, because it is beautiful, as long as we can take wisdom in every event. assalamualaikum"

"waalaikumsalam" he replied slowly accompanied by a smile that expands. Honestly I was fascinated by his smile because only this time he smiled sincerely in front of me.

"assalamualaikum" the kitchen door opens, it turns out that BI Nani

"waalaikumsalam, BI where is ashila?" I asked when I saw only my aunt coming

"neng assyila? aunty does not know neng, aunt came here alone ko" replied aunty as confused by my question

"tadi assyila went outside to nyari aunty, but the rich did not meet yah"

"oh, kirain apa. yah rich not meet his aunt"

"where did aunt come out of?"

"aunt runs out of the canteen to tell the mang Udin if tomorrow the father tells to take durian in the garden behind the pesantren"

"ohh,, pantes don't see you"

but where's assyila, ko still hasn't come back either.,,,,