My Cry and My Happiness Are In Your Home
Those tears, too, came out
pop assyila
"not shil, ana satiated earlier abis eat same mother caregiver below"
DEG
the answer made this heart hurt,,, it hurt so much. Is it so close to the mother? but all this time I know Nurain never told anything about his closeness to the mother.or mother caregiver tried to approach nurain because in the future intend to make her a future daughter-in-law. masyaallah,, why is this heart so dreamy, why can't it be ordinary to hear about Gus hafidz and nurain.I just fell silent without responding to the nurain's answer, because I was trying to neutralize my heart from the prejudices I made myself.
"subhanallah, does that mean you know about the anti-Gus hafidz relationship?" asked Kania with a little scream as if she wanted to tell this news to everything on the canteen.and succeeded.all eyes were on our table.while Nurain immediately closed Kania's mouth with his hands spontaneously.
"what the heck if talking about it on the brake is not in the gas continues" whispered Nurain to Kania, and I still fell silent trying to control this heart.
"yes, I'm sorry, abis ana did not know that anti was already that close to the mother of the caregiver" said Kania when her hand was released from her mouth
"i-iya" I answered
"continue,,, no, no matter what he says to anti?" ask Kania again
"nothing really important, he just nanya this abis to go where, he continued to say better further here just so he can monitor ana as well, don't know what it means to say that, but clearly ana is very happy to be noticed by the mother's nanny. and she also said that Gus hafidz,,,,"
I immediately cut out Nurain's words before he continued
"ana to the room first yes, you guys continue to talk" I immediately stood up and left the two of them without waiting for an answer from both of them. I don't know what they think of me, I don't know, but obviously I could not if I had to hear about it and that again, because this heart is just the heart of an ordinary human being who could easily be disappointed, who could easily feel pain even though the owner tried to be strong.and I did not want to nurain see that. because he was my best friend, my close friend.I continued to walk through room by room, I continued to walk through, when I got to the front of my room I did not go straight in. I turned my step towards the bathroom, I went in and I locked it from the inside. I turned on the tap so no one would hear me in here, crying, yes, I can't help but tear up again not to get out of his place. o Allah I will not ask why this feeling exists for someone who never considered me to be in his heart.I only ask for strength in this heart, to accept the reality if it turns out my own best friend who was chosen by the person I have always admired, I like. I am pleased with all your destiny for my life, I am happy, yesterday my heart was fragile because of my father and now my heart is fragile because of my feelings. I once again ask for strength for all this, for all the paths of my life that are in your grasp.