My Cry and My Happiness Are In Your Home
Missing My Mother

POV Gus Hafidz

I hugged Nurain from behind as she was standing in front of the mirror combing her long hair.

"your hair is always fragrant, and it always works to make you hypnotized"

I gently stroked the hair and neck of the nurain that was so white and clean.

"it's still noon bang, afraid that someone might come in bad"

"no one will come in, the door is already Brother's key"

"but bang__"

immediately I silenced my mouth with my lips.no more words came out, only silence in the breath began to wail between us.

well, this afternoon I saw my wife was so seductive.and honestly I can't help myself if Nurain has already brushed her hair and shows her pure white neck.

maybe I was selfish, because I couldn't help myself when I was hit by a problem I didn't know about.

but here I want to make her momentarily forget about what was on her mind, after that, I just want to invite him to talk to tell me about who the man who met him in the mall at that time.

I drifted more and more with the wonderful pleasures of the world, as well as the nurain that began to sound a little groaning as I tried to touch it deeper.

there was no more chatter between us, there was only the roar of breath hunting each other.Touching, feeling each other, and enjoying each other.

such is the beauty of a couple who are already halal.every touch becomes a field of reward for both, every touch makes the two more affection and love each other.

"Syukron because you've always served your brother"

I kissed her forehead while nurain was lying on my chest, after we performed our ritual of worship.

"nur wants to take a shower first yah bang"

"don't, you still want to hug you"

"but nur sweats, later brother smells his nyium"

"in fact, Abang likes the smell of your sweat. let alone the sweat that appears because of the actions of Brother, Brother increasingly opium with the smell of your sweat"

I tried to tease her by blowing the back of her ear.

"Ange, tickle me"

"get amused what tempted"

"what the hell, ah nur want to take a shower"

nurain began to wake up but immediately I immediately pulled his hand and his body fell right on my chest.

"Abang said that he would take a shower later, if you are still upset Abang continued the second round"

"Abang nih"

"hence the same brother yah"

I once again embraced Nurain lovingly.

"sad, can you ask me something?"

nurain nodded his head which was under my chin.

"why have you been so quiet lately, is there something you've been thinking about?"

nurain did not reply directly, he simply shook his head slowly

"did someone hurt you?"

I looked at her face right in front of me

"why are you crying? did you hurt your brother?"

suddenly tears came out of my wife's eyes, which made me even more worried if she kept her grief alone

"nur kangen mother"

her words with a hoarse voice that seemed to try to hold back her sadness.

"tomorrow I pilgrimage to his tomb well, you don't cry there is a brother here"

I hugged Nurain again to try to calm her heart.

though he is here alone, without his mother, father or brother, but yesterday with ease I made him feel more alone.

'pardon Brother, who cannot fully understand you nur'

~

"are you leaving today?"

tanya umma when she saw me and Nurain was ready to go out

"iya umma, but his rich hafidz and nurain return tomorrow because they want to pilgrimage to the tomb of the mother first and nginep in the house nurain"

"yes no papa, all of you take a walk so that it is not saturated at home"

"iya umma insyaallah, yes we have left first well, assalamualaikum"

"waalaikumsalam wr"

"honey, we buy something first for mamang and aunty"

"yes bang"

we stopped at a cake shop and a gift shop to buy some fruit.

"hafid__ isn't it hafidz?"

a hijab-wearing woman greeted me while we were busy choosing what to buy

"o Allah, how are you? inget no, I'm Mia a classmate at the tutoring place first"

I just smiled in response and tried to remember the woman in front of me right now

"determin you forget? it is only natural that we have not met for how many years. Oia this is Aisyah right? you guys married? well, did not expect well it turns out you guys are dating.you guys are compatible anyway from the past.one beautiful one handsome, equally smart, both children from a great family as well. hmmm people must be envious to see you, let alone alumni friends in the days of tutoring first.but there are no wedding invitations you in the group?"

"sorry Mia, this is not Ayesha but this is my wife's nurain"

"oh, sorry. I thought Ayesha, because last saw Ayesha also veiled"

"yes no papa. I have not invited all my friends because we married new ijab first. later insyaallah when the reception of his invitation I spread"

"oh yes awaited his invitation, if so, excuse me first, assalamualaikum"

"waalaikumsalam wr"

"you if you say no brake, it's not good with his wife earlier"

"yes, I don't know"

there was a whisper of Mia's friend as they walked behind me and nurain.

at a glance I saw Nurain, hopefully he was not offended by Mia's words earlier.

"does anyone want to buy, baby?"

"no bang, that's enough"

"we pay now"

~

after arriving at the nurain parents' house, we were greeted by mamang and her aunt who lived in the nurain house.

we let go of longing by chatting and eating together. after finishing we went directly to the grave of the mother whose location is not too far from home.

nurain hugged the tombstone as if she was hugging her mother.

I let him cry to express his longing for the mother he could no longer see.

without feeling these tears also fell, because it also felt like the sadness felt by my wife.

'mom, your body is no longer visible to us but hafidz is sure you always see us from there.

now the mother's son is crying shed all his misses on the mother,

pray for hafidz so that it can be a backstop for his grief, he said,

pray hafidz to always make her smile,

pray hafidz so that you can carry out the mandate of the mother to always take care of her'