My Cry and My Happiness Are In Your Home
Again and Again

after the dawn prayer, I immediately looked for the whereabouts of Naura who slept last night in Ning Farah's room while my husband Gus hafidz still had not returned from the mosque.

this morning I'd like to make breakfast for my daughter and husband.

"tea nur, here comes tea"

ning Farah said as Ning Farah's room door was already booked by her owner.

"would you like to see Naura?"

she asked as she led me into her room.I just nodded while smiling kindly at Ning Farah who was none other than my sister-in-law.

it turns out my daughter is still sleeping soundly. Like she's comfortable sleeping with her atheu.

"the usual Naura clock this early wake up, but this has not.may be tired from the trip well tea"

"like her so Ning. but, did her sleep semalem not wake up? normally Naura wakes up in the middle of the night asking to make milk"

"yes the semalem tea is also awake and KA aisy,,,,"

Ning Farah hung up her sentence as if afraid to offend me. Right, last night's incident was witnessed by all the family, even assyila, as she was, Maryam and Ustadz Ahmad also saw how I did not feel comfortable with the closeness between my daughter and doctor Aisyah.

"so doctor Aisyah's staying here?"

ask Ning Farah

"i-iya nur tea, because last night was very late so Aisy KA stayed here, let alone su,,,"

"yes already no papa, excuse me first yah Ning, assalamualaikum"

before Ning Farah spoke at length, I better leave the room.

why should doctor Aisyah make milk for my daughter? I'm her mother here and I'm more entitled to it.

the annoyance that almost disappeared last night now seems to come back to my heart, and still with the same reason that is the presence of doctor Aisyah.

"where are you from, baby?"

when I opened the door, gus hafidz was already inside holding a yellow book in his hand.

I just caught a glimpse of her then sat on the bed with my irritated feelings that had not gone away.

"why? are you still angry with you, brother?"

he, gus hafidz put his book and then approached by sitting beside me.

"Abang,,, what used to be that Aisyah doctor used to stay here?"

gus hafidz looked at me with two eyebrows that were linked as if confused by the question I had just asked.

"Why not answer? did Aisyah's doctor often stay here?"

I said repeating the question

"why are you suddenly talking about that?"

"Why ask back? nur just want an answer, what's not?"

"ever, several times"

"oh,, pantesan"

my feelings of annoyance grew even more when I heard the answer from my husband.

"but, even if it's an emergency and it's definitely when there's no brother here"

"oh so, why now does he dare to stay here when there is Brother?"

with the replicas I asked in a slightly high voice

"you why the hell nur suddenly ask something that is not important"

there was a resentful tone from Gus hafidz's voice when answering my question. I was wrong because you just made up but I seemed to create a new commotion again.

"nur just didn't want doctor Aisyah to replace Nur's position as Naura's mother"

5but I could not bear these tears so smoothly.

"nur was afraid, Naura would be closer to Aisyah's doctor than nur as her mother,, hiks,,, whereas her time in Surabaya Naura never said anything about Aisyah's doctor, she said, she enjoyed her closeness with me and dad so much, but now,, why should doctor Aisyah bang"

"it's just about the time baby"

"Naura is still a child, there are still many opportunities for you to be closer to her than anyone.Sorry Brother can not prevent Aisyah from caring for our daughter, because this is also not the will of Abang. yes, you want to teach the book first yeah"

after kissing my forehead, Gus hafidz left our room and I stepped into the kitchen intending to make breakfast for my family, especially for my daughter Naura.

"neng, early in the morning go to the kitchen"

greet bi Nani kindly when I was in the kitchen

"yes bi, make breakfast"

answer me no less friendly

"don't let my aunt"

"no papa bi, anyways I want to make breakfast for Naura"

"oh, it's been ready for Aisyah just now, it's at the dinner table"

hearing the name of Doctor Aisyah again at once this heart felt the intense heat, honestly this was the first time I felt this angry at someone, in order not to make a fuss in this house, because after all this is the house of my teacher and my in-laws.

"breakfast neng Naura is already common in ready neng Aisyah or Gus hafidz, but most often neng Aisyah who made it because neng Naura really likes to cook neng a,,,"

as if just realized from something, bi nani did not continue her words and instead looked at me with an unpleasant look towards me.

"sorry auntie ya neng"

bi Nani continued suddenly

"heeummm, from now on who's ready to eat breakfast for Naura bi, that's at the simple dinner table, or eat each other"

I said as I continued to prepare the ingredients I wanted to cook for breakfast this morning.

I can't stop thinking, after last night why Doctor Aisyah is still doing things I don't like.

she had to realize that I was uncomfortable with her closeness to my daughter, but this,,,,,, was,,,,

PRANK

subconsciously, this hand slammed the spoon I was holding.

"doesn't papa, right?"

bi Nani touched my shoulder, maybe she was surprised to see my behavior this morning which was so angry.

I just shook my head in response to bi Nani's question.

almost fifteen minutes I just finished my cooking, especially for my daughter, I'm ready for her favorite sausage and toast, that's what I always prepared when I was in Surabaya for him.

after everything was on the table, I decided to change my clothes and prepared to call my daughter and husband to take them to breakfast together, no exception to everyone at home.

"honey, you're beautiful.Where are you going?"

gus hafidz asked who had just returned home to teach as I walked in the living room about to go to Ning Farah's room.

"i want to wake up Naura bang for breakfast. Brother also get ready well we have breakfast together"

"it's Naura"

gus said hafidz while pointing at our daughter who happened to have been led by her atheu, rNing Farah.

"abiii"

my little daughter ran towards us with her hair neatly arranged in her ponytail.

"mash God, Abi's daughter is beautiful"

said Gus hafidz while smearing his tiny cheeks

"iya dong, kan abis in bathiin sama ateu"

replied my daughter with a tone has a child

"it's the same carry um,,,"

"ma'am aisy,,, naula wants to be in a sling mama aisy"

I haven't had a chance to hold her tiny body, Naura suddenly whined and pointed at someone who was behind us. Well,,, well,, once again the doctor Aisyah who this morning managed to make my heart back angry and sick because of his presence.

why should he be God,,, why,,,