My Cry and My Happiness Are In Your Home
Nurain's Travel

POV Gus Hafidz

"dad disappointed with your attitude"

it was the first time I welcomed my arrival.

umma immediately stood up when she saw my father-in-law slapping my cheek, while Babah just sat with a look of the face that I don't know what he had in mind.

"you're the cause of my son's all this, and after a coma, you didn't even inform his father and brother's password.What do you mean to do all this? you want to make her tormented alone? without any of her family defending, right?"

eyes full of anger and disappointment, that's what I'm currently seeing with my father.

"fidz, before the operation took place your wife had time to wake up and tell Auntie not to tell her father and sister if anything happens to her. she did not want her father and sister to feel deep sadness again after her mother's departure"

that was the mandate that had been delivered through Aunt Rini at that time, and I did it with a heavy heart.

"Alhamdulillah if the grandson of the father was born safely.Where is his mother? I want to talk to her, I miss your daughter"

"sorry well, during pregnancy nurain always experience less blood then nurain sempet unconscious because of fatigue during childbirth.so now still checked by a doctor, and can not be taken by mouth. but the doctor said insyaallah nurain will not be okay"

"alright, hopefully you guys there healthy always. later after allowed to see Nurain, please VC again dad well. sorry father and password can not immediately see the state of nurain and your child because of the tasks that you can not leave, but I promise God if all the business is in order, if all the business is in order, I went straight to Bandung to see you all"

various reasons I say, every time my father contacted us either via VC or just through ordinary WA messages. I have never seen or heard the sound of nurain, never once did I see or hear the sound of nurain, there is always a reason I make up for myself.

umma and Babah once talked about letting me tell the state of nurain to his family, but I never did because I understood what the nurse was worried about. he didn't want to see his father and brother worry about his circumstances.

"sorry yeah, hafidz just doesn't want to make dad worry"

I said with a trembling tone because I was sad to see the disappointment in his face.

"dad thought you could take good care of your daughter, but it turned out that you were wrong.it was you who caused my daughter like now.dad was disappointed with you hafidz, very disappointed"

the clear hair came out of the eyes of a father because he was disappointed in the husband of his daughter.Tightness of this chest, seeing a destiny that was so difficult to live.

my wife who had been lying down for four months, my son who missed a mother so much, and now my father-in-law looked at me full of anger and disappointment.

my God, I think this test is so hard for me to pass 😥

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father looked at Nurain with deep affection and sorrow.

he stroked her head and then kissed her forehead with tears that began to unravel.

"forgive me, son, I can't take good care of you, I'm not by your side when you need me, and I'm sorry I haven't been a good father to you"

again, this heart felt slashed with all the words of the father to Nurain.

not because I was offended at his words, but because I could not be a good husband that made a father cry and disappointed by the actions of a man who had been trusted to take care of his daughter, but it was precisely the cause of her daughter wretched.

'SORRY DAD' is the only word I can say in my heart.

"dad wanted to meet with the doctor who treated Nurain"

he said without looking at me

"hafidz take daddy there"

I also brought my father to the room Aunt Rini and happened to be Aunt Rini was in his room.

"yes why fidz?"

ask Auntie Rini when the door is open,

"oh, of course, come in"

we went in and sat on the chair in front of the Auntie Rini's desk.

"i want to move my daughter to a big hospital in Surabaya"

suddenly my father said something that made my heart stop instantly.

"m__m___What does that mean? you want to bring Nurain?"

I couldn't believe what I had just heard from his mouth

"i want to provide the best care for my daughter and of course she is under my supervision"

continued her firmly on Aunt Rini regardless of my question towards her

"do you mean the father wants to bring nurain?"

ask Aunt Rini who might not be less shocked like me

"yes, I want to take care of my daughter directly"

my father sounded so sure

"but sir, I think the treatment here is enough pawns. let alone from the beginning I handle nurain.so as good as nurain let treated here by me and hafidz as her husband"

said Aunt Rini while looking at me

"sorry, I don't want to argue about this. I just asked my daughter to be transferred to another hospital that's all"

"not so pa, nurain is treated here with the permission of the guardian or her husband is hafidz. then the responsible for the nurse is not only the doctor and the hospital, the hospital, but also hafidz as her husband.so if you want to move the nurain, of course there must be permission from hafidz in addition to the hospital"

"sorry doc, I can't let my daughter be cared for by irresponsible men. Let alone her being the cause of my daughter experiencing all this, my daughter was in a coma for four months but this man who claimed to be her husband did not tell me about her circumstances.what kind of person could this be said to be responsible for her wife?the doctor must understand that"

in a loud voice my father said all that to Aunt Rini and me.

"hmm, look, sir, I really understand how you feel as a father seeing a daughter lying helplessly on the cause of the accident I can't be sure who it was, who it was, because I am not at the location, but for hafidz who does not tell the state of nurain to the father, it is because Nurain's message that had been aware before surgery, which was not clear, who begged me not to tell his father or his family about his situation unless he was no longer in this Duni. that's why Hafid didn't tell his father and his other family"

I just quietly listened to the conversation between Aunt Rini and dad, hoping that dad would understand the situation.

"his feeling was too far-fetched. sorry doc either there is a permit or not, I will still bring my daughter to be cared for in Surabaya"

firmly, my father said all that, like his father was really angry so it did not give me a chance to explain all of it.

inevitably the doctor Rini also gave permission to take nurain father to go to Surabaya. In fact, I knelt on my father to let the nurse in the care here with me.

"sorry well, however hafidz is her husband nurain, so hafidz is more entitled than her upper father"

now my tone of voice is more firm, so that my father will understand and not bring nurain

"sorry father does not want to argue anymore about it. if you are indeed her husband nurain, then let the father bring her to take care of her. I am sure the cause of nurain has not been awake until now, so far, it's because of his disappointment with you, so let him stay away from you for a while"

without waiting for my answer, my father immediately went to prepare everything for the nurain move.

"Besan, I hope besan rethink what besan decided. hafidz is wrong, but it would be nice if nurain was treated here alone with her husband and children. let alone_"

"sorry kiai, I don't want to separate hafidz and nurain for good. I just want to take care of my own daughter before the regret comes on me. hafidz may see her occasionally, he said, and I'll let Nurain come back here if he's conscious and my heart is open to forgive hafidz. I'm sorry, I can understand how I feel as a father to his daughter"

finally Babah and umma could not do anything else because the father was determined to his desire.

oh my God, this is a test