My Cry and My Happiness Are In Your Home
Why and Why

"ana,,, ana, don't know what kind of mistake ana's ustadzah" I looked down with a fall of tears that I couldn't stand anymore.

"well, if anti also do not want to say, try anti look here,, anti-times now remember what anti error?" ustadzah nurul showed me a paper, I saw it by trying to remember what the paper was.

"why silence? still not feeling too? okay ana bacain dalem nya.Bismilbornrahmanirrahim,

assalamualaikum wr

hello nur,,,

actually confused about what ana wants to write here, because there is too much you want to convey and ana asked anti. but it seems this is not the right time for ana to convey everything," ustadzah Nurul read out the stanza of the contents of the paper.masyaallah, it turns out that it was a letter from Gus hafidz at that time, he said, why could there be a stamp on me when the letter I had thrown away at the same time I came home from poststren, but I cannot refute it because the letter was found in my closet, and I also cannot say if the letter was given by Gus Luthfi and not reciprocated from me. because if I say it indirectly I feel like I have humiliated Gus hafidz even though he is the son of my teacher who I have to keep his good name, especially here is the cottage they can not believe it just like that if the letter is from Gus hafidz. Oh God how is this??

"don't cry now because your tears have no benefit, you should think before making a fatal mistake that can make you lose yourself. let alone XII class who tomorrow will face the test, you should think before making a fatal mistake that can make you lose yourself, instead of giving a good discount for your classmates, instead of focusing on your learning, this even makes shame and a bad discount for others"

really I was slapped with the words Ustadzah Mila, I was ashamed of my friends and my younger siblings, especially the nanny, for sure he knew about this and after this we will definitely be called directly by him, I have to answer what if he asks about this later, but I also don't want to make my parents embarrassed because of this. sayaallah,,,,,,, well, I don't want to make my parents embarrassed because of this,,,

Pkl 23.00 wib we just finished interrogated and advised, this is still not finished, because there is still a punishment that we have to live tomorrow after facing the mother of the nanny directly. we will be questioned again to ensure that we completely admit our wrongdoing, after which the punishment for us will be determined. if the violation of the weight of the punishment must be severe, the sentence will be severe, starting to be whipped in the legs and hands, memorize long letters, clean the neighborhood boarding school, wear a veil or clothes offence, to be removed directly from the cottage and school unilaterally, until removed from the school unilaterally, that's for those who have committed more than two major offenses in a row, although I'm sure I won't be taken out of this cabin, but still I'm afraid of facing tomorrow.

I was still crying in front of my closet accompanied by my friends who were trying to accompany me, they asked me about what my mistake was to be called there. yet I could only remain silent in her wet tears that continued to flow, I could not tell my friends about what offense I committed.

why did Gus, why did he have to write that letter for me? why should I?