My Cry and My Happiness Are In Your Home
Meet Nilam

POP Gus Hafidz

after hearing what my aunt said, I checked my phone.

'fast, in silent'

fourteen missed calls, also five messages I haven't read

message from Farah:

{assalamualaikum, bang Farah sama umma and teh nur shopping is still a long time.so Brother relax aja his meeting, do not rush 😁}

message from Miss Reyan:

{assalamualaikum hafidz is a file you should learn about our new project in Sukabumi}

message from Arif:

{assalamualaikum bang how are you healthy? hopefully always healthy yes all there.if you have free time, Arif want to vc an equally Brother, anyone wants Arif to ask about lessons that Arif does not understand 🙏}

message from unknown number:

{assalamualaikum, hafidz this friend of his Aisyah.sorry before her if I'm a little presumptuous, just there's something I want to talk to you important}

{I've tried to contact us several times, but there is no answer. So I tried to contact you via home phone, and he said you are in a meeting. very please, so please, if possible I want to meet directly with you🙏}

for a moment I thought, confused to answer what. on the one hand I was afraid to make Nurain misunderstand, nurain, but on the other hand I was also afraid that what his friend Aisyah would say was something very important.

{what can not be conveyed via phone?}

one reply to a message from me to her.

{like it is not comfortable if you have to talk via telepon}

it didn't take long for a reply from Aisyah's friend to come in

{well, I'll meet you}

finally I decided to meet him in person, hopefully this is the best.

{before I say thank you hafidz, for the place I send now via serlok}

without waiting for long, her friend Aisyah sent out the location she had determined.

"assalamualaikum, de shopping is still a long time?"

ask Farah by phone on the sidelines I drive a car

"waalaikumsalam, good bang. why? Do you want to walk?"

ask Farah over there

"yes, but you have a need for a little while.only after finishing directly there"

"okay deh bang, Abang selesain aja affairs Abang. anyways we are here still cool picky clothes for ponakan Farah dearest hehe"

"iya de, but brother nitip nurain well do not get tired"

"yes, ready to bang"

after hanging up the phone, soon I arrived at a cafe that had been determined by his friend Aisyah.

when entering, a woman with a denim hijab waved at me. Her clothes were not too shar'i like Aisyah, she was just wearing pants of material and a loose shirt that was in line with her hijab color, she said, but it is quite polite and not uncomfortable in the eyes.

I just nodded politely, without introducing myself because I thought he knew when he first sent me a message.

"want to order a drink or a meal?"

continue on

"drink only"

"alright"

then he called one of the waiters and ordered a drink for me.

"before her I apologize for making you come here.there are things I want to ask at once I until right about Aisyah. hafidz I know how close Aisyah is to you, I know how close Aisyah is to you, I also know how your life journey is. I know how happy Aisyah is when she tells me about you, I also know how sad and broken Aisyah is when she knows that you prefer other women, she said, I know it all, because I'm always on his side when he's happy and hurt.but hafidz for this time, this time, I can't see Aisyah torturing herself because of her engagement"

the woman, who was named patchouli, began to shed her tears as if she also felt the sadness of her best friend.

"i know, Aisyah does not love ka Alfan, I know she still can not open her heart to any man. Because in her heart there is still you. she always told me, because in her heart, she always told me, that he can sincerely release you, he is sincere with his destiny which is not matchmaking with his love.but not from the look of his eyes.even before his engagement, not the cheerfulness I see, not the joy I see, there was not the slightest bit of happiness that emanated from his face.just there was only sadness and even his attitude that seemed to torture himself.he was getting busy with work that he should not do, he was getting busy with work that he should not do, he often left eating on the grounds of fasting, his lips always said dhikr, but I know his heart was empty, his heart was empty fidz. he seemed not to have the spirit of life.he was alive but as if dead. to me, right now Aisyah is just a doll to herself. I've never seen her as sick as this. her body is indeed healthy, but her inner, her heart, is deeply hurt. so I beg of you, persuade Aisyah not to force this engagement, because I fear that if she forces herself, there will only be a wound between them. and I also beg you to want___marry her"

it felt like this heart was filled as it listened to how Aisha's life was now behind me but,,,

"i__i cannot marry Aisha"

"why? won't our religion allow polygamy?"

"yes but__"

"but what is fidz? but you don't love her?"

"polygamy is not that easy, there are certain conditions that allow it to be polygamy"

"is Aisyah not qualified enough? he was tormented by his feelings, even as if he was almost desperate. Was that not enough for polygamy?"

I fell silent, thinking about all these problems.I was confused how, because I also did not want to see Aisyah tormented with her life. but__i also could not hurt Nurain who soon became the mother of my child.

"are you happy to interfere in my life?"

"DORRO??"

nilam and I were both surprised when I saw Aisyah was already beside us

"is it not enough with everything I've been through, to make you understand all the decisions I've made? Nilam, I thought you were my best friend. I was wrong, you didn't understand me, you made me so despicable in the presence of hafidz"

"not that isy, I__"

before Nilam continued his words. Aisyah raised her palm to stop Nilam.

"and you fidz, if there is no feeling in your heart for me. Never show your concern for me, as if I meant something to you. and I say thank you to all of you, who have succeeded in making my life ashamed and ruined"

Aisyah also came out I died Nilam.but soon Nilam followed her, as well as I who followed them from behind.

Aisyah, instead ran with her cries as me and Nilam tried to catch up with her.

AISYAAAAHHH

Nilam shouted when he saw a speeding car about to hit Aisyah.

quickly I immediately ran after Aisyah, and,,,,,

seriated