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Secuil Babah's Advice

POP Gus hafidz

this morning I ventured to contact Nurain after asking auntie first if nurain today happened to be at home. Alhamdulillah it turns out he was at home aiding his aunt as usual.by phone home I contact him. but said bi Nani he did not want to pick up the phone because it felt very rude if you had to receive a call from someone through the house where there is no permission from the owner, which is not the right, moreover, his house is empty. Great indeed, it is one of his good qualities that make me more amazed towards him.

not until there I tried to find another way so that nurain can talk to me. yes, I finally contacted him via BI Nani's phone and this was also the idea of BI Nani himself. his sense of heart is starting not because it is so nervous he wants to talk to someone we like, let alone the person already knows how we feel about him. subhaanallah,,, the feeling of love that you create in the heart of every human being is indeed very beautiful.

after waiting for a few minutes, my aunt said she was willing to talk to me. Bismillah, I hope she forgives me, I hope she is not angry or hate me.

with a greeting, I tried to open the conversation with him. But there was no answer, I called his name, he was still silent.His phone was cut off? I looked at the screen of my phone, it was still connected.

"nur,, sorry" was all I could say, as I felt that Nurain was really angry with me.

"nur,, is anti really mad at ana? sorry, ana did not know that it would,," I had not yet finished my words, but suddenly Nurain cut her off by saying that she had no right to be angry with me, that with me being the son of the owner of the lodge, I am free to do anything at my will, that because I am a Gus then whatever I do it will not make me punished even though I have committed violations of the cottage, he said, but what made my heart hurt the most was that when Nurain said that it should have been Gus Luthfi giving the letter to him, he should have thrown it away without having to read it. my heart ached to hear it coming out of her lips.

nur, how angry are you against me? so much hate towards me? how worthless is my feeling for anti?

without feeling these tears come out with his own.This is only the first time I feel such a deep feeling in someone, he said, so the feeling of this feeling is so painful to hear the person I love as if so hateful towards me.

Afwan nur,, this is all my absolute fault, but I will never give in to anti-aggression against me. I will not despair with anti-hate towards me.

I will always try to be able to forgive me, to be able to accept me, and, and, one day, to be able to love me.

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"yes, little brother came out" I went to the bathroom for a while to wash my face so as not to look exhausted crying, mirroring for a while making sure that my face looks fresh. After all, it is safe, I immediately went out of the room to approach the faqih in the living room.

"assalamualaikum" said faqih standing from his seat and immediately approached me while hugging me tightly

"waalaikumsalam wr wb" I replied as I returned his embrace.

that's our habit, every meet always say hello while hugging, but this is done only to the mahrom, only, it is not like western tradition that does it to anyone whether men are against women or vice versa.

"how about the preparation of the mid and final semester exams for next month are you ready for fidz?" faqih asked when we were sitting on Sopa again.

"why emang? tumben-tumbenan nanya it" I replied casually, because usually if faqih had asked about it there must have wanted her.not me suudzon but this has become customary law for him.

"no,, yes in class everyone already knows who is the most diligent to record if the lecturer again classify the course. well,,, ana dapet Ilham to nyamperin his person directly to make his minjem note that, if you learn from the notes, you can get good grades too, or even pass that from the exam hehe"

"you've guessed your strategy from before"

here I want to explain one of the lecture systems in Turkey that there are no assignments and descriptions at the end of the semester such as in Indonesia.

lectures in Turkey almost eliminate assignments in every lecture, whether daily assignments or assignments at the end of the semester, this happens almost all campuses in Turkey. But do not be happy first, there are several campuses with several majors that require the final task, only the number is not too much.

Even if almost without assignments, it does not mean that students in Turkey can laze, mid and final semester exams will be as difficult as exams anywhere. There are so many students who pursue satisfactory grades that the portion of their learning becomes very serious and maybe even crazy before the test.

so, it's good we prepare ourselves by understanding the lesson when the lecturer explains so that it will be quite ready with the preparation of the mid and final exams later. may Allah make it easy, Allah send forth for me and my other friends in this test amen.

"may, but remember not to be lost as before" said I gave a warning to faqih who had lost some of my notebooks that he borrowed before. it's nothing just that I don't like if there is a notebook or my book is missing, because it will have an impact on the science that we have so far.

Babah always told me, the benefits or not of our science, barokah or not of our science, so the first thing we must pay attention to is the extent to which we can keep books or notebooks as long as we study where we study when we return home or to where we came from. meaning what? that is, we should not eliminate the books we have studied and the books we make notes on what we learn because someday we will need them back, because someday we will need them again, just look at the record or return to remind something of science that we seem to forget the continuation. insyaallah,,,