THE BATTLEFIELD OF LOVE
Episodes 10. I Never Take That For Granted
Sometimes we independent women often put a distance on the emotional bond. We are too allergic to the word dependency, training ourselves to be too independent. Make a fortress that can not be penetrated even by our loved ones.
Although actually as women we are also very fond if supported, but sometimes we are embarrassed to show it. I don't know maybe because we think it's a weakness. And as a result men sometimes feel unappreciated.
After that conversation he didn't mention anything about me selling my boss's phone number.
But a surprise came a week later. I spent the week with him as usual.
"I transferred $10,000 to your account." I was watching something on the television screen as she said it in the sitting room when she said it.
"You what?" I think my hearing is now wrong when he says $10,000.
"I transferred $10,000 to your account."
"For what!?" Nadaku went straight up. I never asked for it.
"Savings. Set yourself what you need. If you need anything else just say it."
"I told you I don't need it." Fred looked at me with an annoyed look. "I'll give it back." I took my phone. Now he came forward and held my hand tightly. Take my phone and throw it on the couch.
"You're not going to give her back Miss Jennifer. That money I gave you. And can't be returned. Don't make me feel useless. You think I'm too poor to support you. All this time what you've been thinking about, men are useless. I didn't get poor just because I gave you that amount. In front of you is a man who has his own business. And I'm good enough for God sake. Can't you just say thanks, a little word appreciations for me. And I never have intentions to take that for granted, I love you and that why I do support you. Is my word clear for you?!" ** His powerful gang says he's angry now. My hand hurts because he gripped my wrist so firmly.
** and I'm pretty good at my business for God's sake. Can't you just say thank you. And I have no intention of expecting anything in return from you. I love you and that's why I want to support you. Are all my words clear to you?! *
"It's hurts..." I grimaced and he regained his senses to take off his grip immediately.
He went to his study by slamming the door as soon as he said that. Leaving me speechless in shock of receiving her anger. I didn't expect him to be angry like that. I thought my actions were right because I did not want to be his burden, I had enough to make him sad because I chose to pursue my college above all else.
When he vented his anger I realized something. He has supported me with my decision completely. And his gift is because he loves me .The other part was to save his face that I had fried and his self-esteem that was injured because I was doing such an inappropriate thing to only get $100.
He's right he won't have any trouble giving me just $10,000 even if it's probably almost 4 months of my salary. I should have said thank you.
I'm just not used to receiving it. I'm not used to accepting other people's gifts and on the other hand I feel like a spoiled woman who likes to take advantage of people.
I knocked on his office door. And go inside. He sat at his desk and looked at his laptop. He saw me go in but then his eyes went back to his laptop screen. He's still pissed at me of course.
I turned to the side of his chair. Stand beside him.
"Thanks, though,... I'm sorry Fred." He stopped and looked at me, sighing deeply but saying nothing.
"Fred, I'm sorry..." He remained silent and did not care about me. I held her hand.
"I didn't mean to make you feel that way. I'm just not used to being pitied. To me it felt like I was becoming the weak woman I hated all my life. I never meant to not think of you. If it makes you angry I'm sorry, and I feel guilty about you because my decision to go to college, accepting it makes me feel even more guilty." She finally looked at me.
"I'm sorry and thank you Fred." Maybe he needs time to digest my words. I left him. And she caught my hand, pulled me and made me fall into her lap
"Fred?"
"You're not leaving so soon. Say again..."
"Thank you, you've done many things for me." He looked me in the eye when I said it.
"You know sweetheart, I love you because one of you is different, you have your own pride in you. And when you do that lowly thing, I feel like I've been very bad to you. I feel like maybe I didn't notice you very well. You've been pretending you're okay with me all along. You're the one next to me and you're doing the wrong thing because you need money, you know what it's like. I told you, I never thought you'd use me if you asked for help. You're not asking for anything to squander. I love you and how I feel when I know you're saving your ass off for college and I don't even know what you're going through. You really make me feel like a dud. You understand now... Seeing you happy would mean my happiness too." And I was caught up in his words. My eyes warmed up quickly. And the point of tears falling just like that.
"Now I make you cry, God. What am I supposed to do? Tell me what you want, I'm not mad at you I'm just upset."
"Thanks.." -..." I wiped my tears smiling at him. "It's just a touch."
"So, we don't have any more money here okay..." I just nodded.
"As a sign of gratitude?" I raise my eyebrows. And put my hand on his nape.
"I didn't ask for it in return. Why do you still make me feel guilty sweetheart... I want you to kiss me because I miss you so much."
We usually only meet on weekends, rarely on a typical day I can meet him. Unless I can go home at normal hours because there aren't so many patients.
"I miss you too..."
He would never take that for granted.
When a man love you. He would do everything to make you happy, feel secure and warm beside him.**
There was a phrase said by an older wise woman. If you hold a man's hand and he makes you excited (feeling excited maybe yes, that smile) and your heart pounding, then go, he's not the man for you. But if he's holding you and you feel safe, and comfortable. Then he's the one you're gonna marry.
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π¦π¦He would never take that for graded.
*When a man love you. He would do everything to make you happy, feel secure and warm beside him.
*He did not ask for any compensation. When a man loves you. He will do everything to make you happy, feel safe and warm beside him. *
There was an old thought that said by wiser old woman. If you hold a man hand's and that makes you feel excited and your heart beat fist, walk away he is not the man for you. But when you hold him and he makes you feel safe, warm and safe. Then he is the man who you will marry.
There was a phrase said by an older wise woman. If you hold a man's hand and he makes you excited (feeling excited maybe yes, that smile) and your heart pounding, then go, he's not the man for you. But if he's holding you and you feel safe, and comfortable. Then he's the one you're gonna marry.
*Well, I told you that so damn true for me! *
Please be notice that I'm a mature adults, I'm not in age average twenty hahaha ...
*If you wonder why I call2 you brother, that's because most writers call people so wkwkwk .. but sometimes I use the phrase "me", which signifies I ud not girls . *
*I used to feel weird. Why with my hubby there is no sense2 that makes not bs sleep. It's just going smoothly and feel safe. Minimal quarrels, minimal tears. It's just feels completely comfortable each other and sometimes tend to be boring. *
*Then after reading this phrase I just realized I have found someone who really fits me. *
*I originally mentioned why it was so. *
*It's true that with others I can feel excited and fluttering. But the roller coaster never be lasting. *BE NOTICES FOR THIS *Be excited sometimes means to many fractures and differences that make you curious, but in the end you will not be comfortable with term like that. Many actions will tend to be fighting rolller coaster too. EVEN YOU SAY THAT YOU IN MADNESS OF LOVE WITH HIM. ***
It means that if you feel pounding at the beginning it may be a sign that he and you have a lot of different things in your mind. So there's a kind of curiosity at first, but eventually things that don't go together won't be comfortable. And with a lot of friction/differences then you will have a fight roller coaster as well. Even if you could have been in a love that felt crazy with her.
Although the roller coaster was hooked wkwkwkwk, it's adrenaline force that make you get some ADDICTIVE EFFECT then you think he is the FORMER MOST BEAUTIFULπ π π HAYOO STILL REMEMBERED FORMER π π
*But you will be ending with someone who makes you just feel safe. *β€β€β€β€
*So don't remember2 ex yaaa, he is so damn overrrrrrr πππ your soulmate is one who stand beside you and make her/him happy as long as you life. *
*Stay strong to your device. *
* Udehhhhh I am a rich philosopher now hahahaha π€π€π€π many mak2 who read the writing I do yayaknya .. toss yakkk ππππ*
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