THE BATTLEFIELD OF LOVE
Part 156's. Not Perfect Time
I regret approving this drama. That was what I had in mind the next morning. But it's all going. Don't know what I'm doing. When I had to meet James, I didn't even feel like I could see his eyes.
"Year reports. It seems all good, there is one that is a bit drop but that is because the injury is also quite severe. You should see the patient in isolation 3. The others were already handled by Doctor Joshua and Medina."
"Yes come. Let's see him first." He put his job first. Provide changes and additional treatment.
"Call me right away if there's any change. Put this under special surveillance, tell Medina to do a condition check every two hours."
"understand." I turn around going to the pharmacy
"Jen." Jn." My steps stopped again. This time he won't let me go without an explanation. I turned.
"Follow a minute." I had to follow him into his room.
"What are you doing?" That must be the question.
"What am I doing?"
"You know what I mean, you know who Gillian is, why you're involved with her." The drama is running. The deal was made, I can't back down. This has to be resolved.
"Can we not talk about this."
"You're going to see a second Andrew, you don't know enough people like that?" I know better who Gilbert Gillian is of course.
"I told you I don't want to talk to you about it. I need to get to the pharmacy, as soon as I can, if there's any more casualties, it's gonna get busy again." I avoided arguing, letting him think. And get out of his office, not heeding his calls.
I'll wait for this to reach its peak. Almost two years we've been together, Gilbert said I should push him into a corner, if maybe this doesn't work maybe I should bury my hopes. He's right to just consider me a sister. It's okay that I'll learn to accept it from now on.
But as a result, all day I felt guilty and avoided it. Just talk about a really stiff job. I still doubt whether this decision is right or not.
"No."
"Don't lie to me." Now I take a long breath.
"I don't know what I'm doing right or wrong Laura,... " I told him what was going on with him.
"What should now... You know we're at the peak of the bustle."
"That's why I feel guilty, but I'm stuck in Gilbert's scenario. I avoid it now just the same as me ... Oh, my God, what I did. Should I just tell him." Laura patted my shoulder.
"You know, I think if you asked him to explain, he'd say something."
"You mean?"
"So, I think if you ask, I think he'll say something. She's always with you, reminding you, I think she must have feelings for you, can't possibly not." Maybe, I don't know, I don't know, if I knew I wasn't gonna do this.
"It's only gonna last a month, I've made a deal with Gilbert."
"As far as you are concerned, just ask implicitly. He should be able to understand the meaning of all your questions."
Talking to Laura adds to the worry.
And as a result I deliberately didn't want to see Gilbert these few days . Because of our busy lives, and my guilt worried James, I'd rather eat in the aisle next to the hospital the safest place I could find, it feels like a sneaking thief but it's better than finding trouble and guilt in a soup kitchen. Luckily Gilbert wasn't looking for me.
"Why are you eating here?" James found me.