THE BATTLEFIELD OF LOVE
Part 117's. The Goodbye Hot Spring
Like I promised I would cry only once for my lost hope. After that there will be no more useless cries.
"You saw Andrew with a woman yesterday."
"I saw it, and let's not talk about this anymore. Forget about him. Whatever he's gonna do is up to him. I don't want to know anymore. You're right, I should have heard you."
"Alright, let's just say I never talked about this. But you look happy this morning? Why?" I immediately smiled broadly.
"I'll follow James working in Atlanta this spring. I'm going to be helping her train for an experimental drug against that parasite because James and I have been successful with our patients. I'm glad I'm gonna be working in a big city again...." Now I'm telling you about Atlanta I know from James.
"Ahh you're going. I'm gonna lose you."
"You got your D'Angelo baby." She laughed when I called her husband.
"He's different. We can't gossip anymore." I grimaced.
"I'll call you if I can." Susan smile.
"What's wrong, if we can go back to El Paso later, how many more years, we have plenty of time to tell stories. What matters is that you're happy ..." He hugged me, my best friend who I considered family because I had no family here.
"You went out with James, your brother's best friend thought a lot about you."
"I think I'm lucky to have him. Javier said he'd think of me more than I thought. But you know what it's like to have her put herself in charge of my sister."
"Maybe he's afraid of your brother, maybe he's not brave because you're his best friend's sister... Maybe you can tease him a little. He's still a man. You're close, what can't happen. Now with no third man, your Andrew."
"Turped him? I'm not sure I'm brave, what he'll think..."
"Dumb girl, make it seem like it's not on purpose." I grimaced. Like accidentally. I had to ask what that accident meant, Susan was more skilled at making things seem unintentionally. "You should try a little. Don't just wait. What's wrong with flirting with your sister's best friend who's too good to you..."
"I don't know... Let's see it later."
I laugh. Well maybe, I thought he was good but once again he once said he was a man who put career above all else. So maybe our relationship wasn't that important to him.
I enjoyed this winter as a holiday. Thanks to Javier for making me realize.
I passed Andrew when we met. He's been decisive, I don't think I want to talk about it either.
"I heard you were going to Atlanta." Finally, in the afternoon two weeks before my departure, he approached me.
"Yes. Good luck here and get promoted to a bigger city." I see it now without any ripples in my heart, if anything I can ignore it.
"May you get the best of it too."
"Thank you, I guess, thank you for everything you've done for me." We are of the view, this is just a small journey, a few months together, full of happiness and inserted eyes. We were once happy, I guess. I don't regret anything. He made me forget Fred. It's okay it's just a trip.
"I go first, my rest is almost over. Bye Andrew's." I smiled and waved at him.
"Bye Jen."
Goodbye, because we may never see each other again. I hope you'll be okay too.
Winter is coming to an end, green shoots will soon emerge from the melting snow. It's been more than a year since Fred left, I've been able to part from his shadow.
This town taught me about letting go of separation and it didn't seem to go my way. But one thing, I keep even though I'm hurt I'm still okay at last...
Goodbye to Hot Spring..
I hope spring in Atlanta is even better.
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