THE BATTLEFIELD OF LOVE
Part 112's. Quitter 2
Dinner was stiff. Between Susan not liking and half insinuating Andrew, Noah going with Susan, Javier being half misbehaved, I don't know what to say.
I finally went first with Javier after dinner that soon.
"Me and Javier go first."
"The new couple is still hot." Susan doused gasoline. I'm just smiling. Without waiting for anyone's approval I pulled Javier away.
"You're gonna get me killed." Javier grimaces stiffly, knowing he could end up infected if Andrew orders him kidnapped by special forces and dumped him into the black zone.
"So yourself you dare call me darling."
"He wants to approach you again it seems."
"Yes maybe."
"You don't want to?"
"He's a quitter, he left me for Bella and only lasted three instead of the Bell. I don't think she loves me that much. He's not that good to get a second chance. I've thought a lot before. You think I'm right?" I asked for his opinion.
"I didn't know I never spoke to him with four eyes. I don't know him to say it quitter. What's clear is that you're responsible if I'm kidnapped by special forces." He was worried about himself. "Obviously it's better if you're just dating James. He's much better at defending you."
"I'll put flowers on your grave so you don't become a curious spirit. And James you've heard for yourself he thinks of me as his sister." I'm laughing at him now. He shook his head.
"I told you, I don't trust your sister. He just hasn't noticed."
"It's up to you if you don't believe me, you'll be my girlfriend in the meantime."
"Jennifer Gothard, you are a cruel woman. I'm sorry I made you a girlfriend. We'll just break up now. I still love my life. Break, break! I'm looking for a new girl now!" I'm laughing all the time. He wasn't serious about it, I knew he would dare to stay beside me just his mouth was happy to chirp.
"Not so fast Don Juan. You and I are still lovers."
I stuck with Javier when we ate a few days later, to show that I didn't want Andrew to come near me anymore.
Even though I knew one day he'd find a chance to talk to me in one eye.
I stopped and turned to face him now. I feel ready to face it.
"That's my business, which obviously we're done with, you decided to choose Bella, you should mean it with your first love. Who I'm walking after isn't your business anymore." I managed to say it out loud.
"Bella and I couldn't go well, I realized I made the wrong choice. I need you to come back with me. I'm wrong I'm sorry, whatever happens let's forget it and start over. This time I promise we won't be apart again."
"I'm tired of crying to forget you Andrew. I don't like being second choice, you know what it's like to be put aside and then taken away again. I'll never trust you again."
He's coming in front of me. I'm retreating...
"You know you haven't forgotten me. I made a terrible mistake, but I want you to come back, don't lie, you still love me, why don't you believe in your own heart, everyone can say you can't come back to me. But you know you still remember me as much as you used to."
Those words, .. as if he knew everything.
"You look too high on yourself."
"You were happy when you were with me, Jen. We're happy."
"Then you threw it away!"
"I was wrong, I admit I was wrong... You can hit me, scold me, avoid me, push me away. But I'm staying here to ask you back."
We're old-sighted.
"No! You're not that good! Get out of front of me!"
I ran away after screaming at him. I slammed my door and threw myself in my bed, started crying like a fool.
Half my heart wants to say his words are true. I want those happy times back. But the other half could not accept his treatment.
I hate to feel this way again. Hate how I could be affected by his words so easily.